Monday, January 10, 2011

Update for anybody paying attention ;)

Hey everybody ( & everycat). I've gotten a couple of comments on here checking on me & it warms my heart (very much so) every time that happens. The last few years have been VERY hard on me. I left my husband & got an apartment, shortly after that my mom passed away. A few months later Oreo went to the bridge. A few months after that I started having very bad anxiety & panic attacks. Long story short I'm now living with a dear friend because I can't stand to be alone, I'm divorced, in counseling & struggling to find a medication I can take...I seem to be allergic to everything. ;) My counselor tells me I have latent anxiety (basically post traumatic stress disorder) from when I was run over. That dang car is STILL kickin my butt!! (Speaking of which if anybody wants to buy it I'm trying to get rid of it. Counselor thinks I'd be better off if I did.)

So anyway, I'm sorry I don't have anything good to say, no happy updates, no new kitty stories for you guys but I'm alive & kickin & would greatly appreciate any & all prayers you guys can spare. I've thought about starting a new blog, an anxiety blog but most of what I would have to say is very depressing & extremely personal & I wouldn't want certain people who would use that information against me to have it. SSSOOO...I'm not sure where my life is going, but it's dragging me along with it kicking & screaming!! I'll come by here whenever anyone asks & in the meantime Beau's mom & Timmy's mom & lots of others have my email if anyone wants to use it. Course I obviously still get notified if you leave a comment here. ;)

I hope & pray that you're all doing well, you're in my thoughts often & I miss the camaraderie that this community has. Take care & keep in touch.

Heather

17 comments:

Cheysuli and gemini said...

We are sorry to hear about all the difficulties you have been having. We will definitely keep you in our thoughts. That is a big struggle. Please be gentle with yourself as you travel this path. Anxiety is not something that is easy to deal with.

ABBY said...

You will not believe this but just recently when looking through my photos I found the picture of you and Oreo and of course my thoughts went to both of you. Oreo was one of our first furfriends.
I am so sorry to hear about the struggles you have been going through. If you ever need to talk please feel free to email me at wfsmithjrATgmailDOTcom.
Debra

A few Good Cats said...

We're paying attention, we care, and we're sorry that you're going through bad times lately. Hopefully if you keep at it, things will start to turn around and get better.

brandi said...

We are keeping you in our prayers (and purrayers) always. Mommy knows what anxiety is like, and, I guess, so do I, cause she lives with me. Takes courage.
Oreo was one of the first cats we met, and you were one of the nicest beans mom met when she was going through a bad spot, herself. So you are extra special to us.
Blessings and luck,
and many secret visits from the other side from Oreo to your heart to warm you.
brandi and Carol

Mar said...

Thanks so much for the update, I still remember Oreo and how fun it was to read your blog.I kept you in my reader and I was happily surprised you had posted. Sorry you are going through tough times, sending hugs and sunshine your way!

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Carmi said...

Life has a way of kicking us around and testing our mettle right when we least expect it. And it repeats the process indefinitely. I wish good people weren't challenged to this degree: Sometimes, we all just want a break.

It's good to see you back here. If I can share my own experience, writing in any venue in any form has always been cathartic to me. I hope you find it in yourself to continue writing right here, as you've always had a neat way of looking at the world.

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and looking forward to more words and images from your end.

The Lee County Clowder said...

We're sending some purrrrrss and a big group {{hugg}} to you, Heather. We still think about you and Oreo sometimes.

We don't know about your situation, but perhaps the Stephen King approach would help with the car. Supposedly, after recovering from being hit by a van, King bought the van, and spend a couple days/weeks smashing the van to pieces with a sledgehammer. There is some question whether this actually happened, or is just an urban legend, but either way it should be worth an evening's fantasy.

ppuurrrrrrrrsss

Anita said...

I´m so sorry... It isn´t good times for you...

We hope get well soon.

Purrrrrrs and hugs.

Jan's Funny Farm said...

We are sorry things have not been going well. Sure glad to see an update on you, though. We send a hug, purrs and wags for life to change for the better.

Pearl said...

Allergies tend to go up with stress. so much distress your body tends to get haywire. rainbow bridge and divorce and relocation are all going to take an energy toll. hope your year is flattening out. hang in there.
(was Valderbar)

The Lee County Clowder said...

Just thought we'd drop in and say HI.

Hope you all are still hanging in there.

ppuurrrrrrrr

Kimo and Sabi said...

We wish for you a peaceful 2012.

ABBY said...

We came back to check on your Heather...hope things are going better.

xoxox
purrs
>^,,^<
♥Abby♥Boo♥Ping♥Jinx♥Grace♥

Black Cat said...

I think you know how I feel Heather, but why not keep this blog going? I'm sure Oreo would approve... :)xxx

The Lee County Clowder said...

Hey, Heather. Purrrrrring that you and yours are still hanging in there.

Mr. Hendrix said...

Hi, it is Hendrix's mommy here. It has been ages hasn't it? I saw Jimmy Johnson won the Daytona 500 and it made me think of you and Oreo and I wondered how you are.
We don't blog much anymore, but keep in touch more by Facebook. With two kids now, I don't have the time I used to. Hendrix would rather get snuggles from me than just lay by me whie I blog.
I hope all is going well with you and you've found your footing and happiness. Take care.